Wednesday, December 29, 2010


(a non-surro related post)

Remember that "feathers" post I did a couple weeks ago?  Well, this is on those lines...not quite the same, but in the same boat, if you will.

As I likely have posted before, my mom is the best.  She is my best friend, my confidant, my rock.  She's suffered 2 strokes since 2007; although it took a beating on her physically, mentally she's still "got it".  Memory is good, humor is there more than ever--she's still my mom and I love her more and more every day.

Anywho, when I was about 10 years old, I can't recall where we were, but we (mom and I) saw the numbers "444" together and thought it was funny for some reason.  So, since that day (yes, roughly 21 years ago) we'd see "444" and laugh and smile and think it was neat.

Prior to my mom's stroke, if I'd see "444" together and she wasn't with me, I'd make a point to mention it to her at some point.  She'd do the same.  I remember driving home from work talking to her on the phone and she'd usually make a comment "look what time it is!"...and of course it was 4:44.

For the past few years, since her stroke, I hadn't really noticed those numbers a whole lot.  No, I hadn't forgotten about them, but I guess I just didn't notice it as frequently as I had.

...until December 20th, 2010.

I was checking my phone and noticed the number of messages I had:
(and for those wondering, that's Tommy Shaw with his guitar as my wallpaper)

And then I was playing on the computer and went onto Facebook and decided to play Farmville for a bit (yes, I'm one of "those" people)...and with Farmville you have gifts.  Observe the amount of gifts that I had that day:
And then I was checking my phone again and look at my message count later that day:

That is by no intervention from me.  My phone is set up to only keep 15 days worth of e-mails (yes, I get THAT many...) and it will automatically delete those older than 15 days...but over the course of the day I also receive e-mails.  So, the fact that it's the same number 5 hours later is kind of wild and unusual.

Then, I went to bed.  And slept.  And was woken up by London because she needed a diaper change...and guess what time she woke up?? 4:44 am.  I kid you not.

So, that was freaky.  Really freaky.  But cool.

Since then, I've seen the numbers "444" pop up a lot...coincidence?  Maybe.  Cool?  Definitely.

Tuesday, December 28, 2010

29 Days and counting!

First, I hope you all had a wonderful Christmas!!  Ours was great--quite a bit of running around, but that's what makes it the Holiday.  The kids loved all their presents, I loved all the food and family time...oh, and here's what my husband got for me:

A new stereo for my car!!  I'm so pumped!! I'm a music freak and currently have a wireless thingy for my iPod for the car.  Since it's wireless, I do get some feedback/ he got me the new stereo that has the iPod hook-up right in it--SO excited!! It's the same one he had installed in the party bus, so I've had a sneak peek.  It's getting installed on the 15th--and I'll get new speakers, too, if the tech thinks I need them.  WOOOOO HOOOOO!

Okay, surro stuff now....

Well, we've hit the under 30 mark!! Under 30 days until transfer!!  I stopped BCP on Dec 22 and my favorite person (AF) showed up on the 26th, just as she should have.  (thanks for holding off until after Christmas!!)

Today I had an appt today at the RE's office...and so it begins (I only say that because the RE's office is an hour away from to drive an hour for a quick labdraw and 30 second ultrasound is a little annoying...but I do what I need to do!).   They did the lab draw to check Estrogen levels--if it's under 40, I can drop Lupron to 10 units.  If it's above 40, I'll stay on the Lupron at 20 units for a few more days.  Dr. Mark did an ultrasound and my lining was 6.5 (which is good, I think). 

Next steps: 
  • Drop Lupron dose (depending on today's Estrogen level)
  • Start Estrace 1/8
  • Bloodwork (infectious disease) and u/s 1/13
  • Start PIO (Progesterone in Oil) 1/18
Can I get a WOO and a HOO please??  So excited--I have a feeling about this--it's GONNA WORK this time, I just know it!

Monday, December 20, 2010


I'm not sure how much time I will get to post between now and the Christmas weekend, so thought I would make sure and send my warmest Christmas/Holiday/whatever you celebrate wishes to all my blog followers, those that follow publicly and those that don't.

I have a busy week ahead and just because I'm feeling dorky, I'd like to lay it all out right here for the world to see. 

12/21--Holiday party at the office.  Always an interesting feat--usually catered by Boston Market (ah...cornbread....).  We eat, have a gift exchange (which I did not participate in this year because I wanted to hold a grudge on some co-workers) and then my team and I exchange gifts.  Usually turns out to be a good day in the gift department (that's not what it's about, I know...but it makes it more fun!! LOL)

12/24--Chinese food at the nursing home! It's a new tradition we started since mom went to Rocky Knoll after her stroke.  I buy a crapload of Chinese food and take it to her and we mow down on the stuff until we're all sick. It's great fun.  No really, it is.  The kids like it, I like it because I don't have to cook and overall, it's a good night to hang out, open presents and enjoy each others company.

Normally we would hit up midnight mass at church but having 3 kids at church for a candlelit ceremony that's usually serene and quiet is not happening. 

12/25--Open presents with the family at home.  I've been a stickler about this since we had kids.  We HAVE to open presents at our home on Christmas morning.  It's my only thing I won't give into over the Holiday's.  Call me Scrooge, but I feel my kids need to have this tradition.  After we open presents and trash the house with ribbon and wrapping paper (that I spent SO much time on wrapping *sigh*), we'll get ready and head to Steak & Eggs on the farm-another tradition that I don't want to miss.  I'm not sure how long this has been going on (perhaps one of my blog readers could chime in on this know who you are!!) but it's been since I can remember.  My step Grandma (Breeze) and Grandpa (Alfred) have always hosted this at their home....and since my STEP cousin (Kelly) and her husband (Neil) purchased the farm house last year, they've taken over the tradition.  (I emphasize the word STEP for a good's a funny story that I'll tell some day).  Anyway, over the course of the morning, I would guess that no less than 100 people walk through the doors to the old farmhouse to eat the fabulous steak and eggs breakfast prepared.  It's awesome.  After steak and eggs, we'll head to my mother-in-law's house and enjoy the rest of the day there.

12/26--this year is going to be a special "day after Christmas" because aforementioned grandparents (Breeze & Alfred) will be celebrating their 60TH WEDDING ANNIVERSARY!!  Can you even imagine??  60 years!  Wow.  Kudos to anyone that can make it that long. LOL  It's going to be a good day of celebration for them.  After that, we'll head to another Aunt's home for another tradition-prime rib dinner.  YUM.

Yes, it's going to be a busy weekend, but it's all laid out and I have a good hold on where we need to be and when (and I'm a planner, so I needed to have everything laid out weeks ago LOL)  I'm really looking forward to the weekend and everything that comes with it--family, food, fun.

Here's wishing you and yours a blessed and wonderful Christmas.  May you make many awesome memories to share for years to come!

Friday, December 17, 2010

"Why do you want to be a surrogate?"

Why do you want to be a surrogate?

I get that question asked to me nearly every time I tell people about my desire to be a surro. I go into the schpeel about me giving something to someone that they can’t have themselves, etc…but the answer I had was always so rehearsed in my head. I had a moment related to this question this past week and it literally took my breath away.

My children are 5, 3 and 1 and they, along with my husband, are my world. I live for them and don’t know what I would do without them.

Like we’ve done the past few years, I recently made some sugar cookies (not from scratch--sorry Grandma!!) and brought out all the goodies to decorate them—including 4 different colors of frosting and a plethora of sprinkles.

All 5 of us were sitting at the table having a blast when it hit me. This is why I want to be a surrogate. In a few years, I want Branden and Tracy to sit down at their kitchen table with their kid(s) and decorate cookies together and have that awesome moment of family, of being together, of knowing nothing else matters...not money, not jobs, not clothes...

I want to be a surrogate so I can help an awesome couple create many, many moments of family and togetherness because that, my friends, is what it's all about.

Here are some photos from our awesome cookie decorating evening.  I love my family to the moon and back!

Tuesday, December 14, 2010

Ug Ug UG

So, as I mentioned in my previous post, Branden, Tracy, DH and I all went and had a signing festival at the local bank to get stuff notarized this past weekend.  Well, there were about 14 consent forms that just DH and I had to sign and there was a "witness" line below our signatures.  The notary said "oh, you guys don't have to have these notarized--just witnessed" I was like "okay" she witnessed them and all was good.

Yeah, not so much.

Jill called yesterday and said we needed to have EVERYTHING notarized.  Ug Ug Ug.

Thankfully the forms that all 4 of us had to sign were good, but now DH and I have to go back and re-sign (and notarize) all of our consent forms.  It's not going to hold up the process at all, it's just a little annoying, that's all.  I'm bugged because we should have just done it to begin with.  Fart.

In other news, look what I got today!!!

I start it (Lupron) tomorrow!!

Saturday, December 11, 2010

contracts signed...again

Well, we got the 2nd round of contracts and agreements signed today.  Basically, we had to re-sign EVERYTHING we did a few months ago before the first transfer...and most had to be notarized.  The only change we made was the number of embryo's...going from 2 to 3.

But, we spent a good 15 minutes signing about 1800 different documents and whew, it's done.  Branden will deliver to Jill on Monday!

Which means we're all legal and binding and it's on.  I'll start Lupron on Wednesday (hmmm..Jill said she ordered me some, but I haven't gotten yet...must call her).  I'll continue on the BCP until Dec 22, which means I have to get another pack of it for like 3 days worth.  Slightly annoying, but I do what I need to do.

In other "stuff", we're supposed to be getting hit with a MEGA storm tonight.  Like 9-14 inches worth of the crappy white stuff.  It's now 7:00pm and there's nothing...but I do understand a city 20 minutes north is getting hit-so it's on it's way.  The family and I are all hanging out tonight, ready for anything.

Oh, and I just made a batch of the most awesome soup EVAH!  It's from the Pioneer Woman (LOVE LOVE LOVE her!!) and this is about the billionth time I've made it.  I need to share and you need to make it because it rocks everything. 

■2 slices Bacon, Cut Into 1/2-inch Pieces (or Smaller)

■2 Tablespoons Butter

■1-½ whole Yellow Onion, Diced

■5 ears Corn, Shucked (about 4 Cups)  (Jesse's note--I used 2 bags of frozen and it worked just fine...)

■2 whole Chipotle Peppers In Adobo Sauce, Finely Diced

■1 whole 4-ounce Can Diced Green Chilies

■32 ounces, fluid Low Sodium Chicken Broth

■1-½ cup Heavy Whipping Cream

■½ teaspoons Kosher Salt (more To Taste)

■3 Tablespoons Corn Meal OR Masa

■¼ cups Water

Preparation Instructions

(Carefully) slice the corn kernels off the cob. Set aside.

Add bacon pieces to a pot or dutch oven over medium heat. Cook for a couple of minutes. Throw in diced onion and stir, cooking the onion for 3 to 4 minutes. Add butter and melt. Add corn. Stir and cook for one minute. Add both kinds of chilies and stir.

Pour in chicken broth and cream. Add salt. Stir and bring to a boil. Reduce heat to low.

Combine cornmeal (or masa) with water. Stir to combine, then pour into the chowder. Cover and cook for 15 minutes over low heat. If chowder needs more thickening, add another tablespoon of cornmeal mixed with water. Cook for another ten minutes.

Serve with crusty sourdough bread or in a bread bowl. Absolutely yummy!

Make it.  You won't be disappointed.  I promise.

Saturday, December 4, 2010

Getting to Part I

Just cause I'm kinda bored (at 8:00 on a Saturday night...sigh...) I thought I would do a post with some interesting facts about yours truly.  It's likely I will continue this list at some other point...but here's a start.

...and to make it more interesting, I'm doing a photo "getting to know me"....

I've seen this band 16 times in concert. (Styx)

I used to think pink pants were cool.
I was a student at Auburn University for 5 days.
(that may warrent an entirely new blog post some day...)
I picked up a sax my freshman year of high school and fell in love.
I grew up on a farm and milked cows a lot.
I showed Arabian horses for 12 years.

I hate snow.  I realize I live in Wisconsin...but I still hate it.

 And so concludes Part I of "Getting to know me".  Watch for Part II sometime soon!

Thursday, December 2, 2010

this post has no title

I just got a call from Jill (nurse at the RE's office)...she wanted an inventory of my meds so she could order me more of whatever I needed. 

And then it hit me.  I start Lupron in 13 days!  WOO!

Okay, I was a little excited about that.  Anyway, she does need to order me the Lupron and more Progesterone, but that's it--I'm good on everything else.

We (my husband and I) have to meet up with B & T some time hopefully next week to re-sign and notarize all the paperwork again.  Since we're going to transfer 3 embryo's this round (last time we did 2), we have to basically re-do all the paperwork.

Okay, that's my surrogacy update.  Not a big one, but hey--this whole process is a hurry up and wait kind of thing.

And here's a random photo for you...was just ordering some photos for some gifts and found this one I took earlier this year (when there was still snow on the ground)...

Tuesday, November 30, 2010


A blogger friend (Kristen) did a recent blog-post about signs and I thought I'd do the same (ack-I'm a copy blogger!! LOL).

No, not road signs.  Sign signs.  Like, "give me a sign if....".

My grandma (mom's mom), Rose, was awesome.  She had 10 kids, lived on a farm and her husband passed away the year I was born (1978).  She wouldn't dare ever buy soap because she made her own.  She wouldn't dare buy a loaf of bread, but would make 18 loaves a week.  She cooked with lard all the time and wouldn't leave an ounce of meat on a chicken carcass for fear of wasting it.  She was awesome.

My mom was very close with her--both in proximity and in their relationship.  When grandma started getting ill, my mom would visit with her daily.  She was 92 when she went into the hospital, where she wasn't a patient for long due to her forthcoming passing.  While she was in the hospital, my mom was with her almost the entire time.  On the day she died (I wasn't there, but this story is told by my mom) my mother found a feather on the hospital floor (in her room) just moments before she passed away.  She picked it up and stuck it in her pocket, not even thinking about it, really.

A few days later, my mom told me this story and we talked about it...The burning question is this:  why would there be a feather on the floor of a very sterile hospital room?  Where did it come from?  Grandma.

That was in 2002.

My mom and I have found feathers all the time since then.  We'd find them on our own and we'd find them together-when we did, we'd pick them up and smile to each other.  As a matter of fact I just had a moment of the feather finding.  I was taking out the "brown and serve" rolls for Thanksgiving just last week.  As I was trying to remove them from their plastic bag so I could place the perfectly formed rolls on the baking sheet, I noticed a very small feather floating through the air of my kitchen.  At that very moment I knew it was grandma, slapping my wrist for not making my own dough.

Saturday, November 27, 2010


Yo Gabba Gabba.

If you've never seen it-might I suggest you-tubing it?  It's worth it.  Perhaps do a search for "Don't Bite Your Friends".

That's all I'm gonna say about that.

Wednesday, November 24, 2010

Happy Thanksgiving

I know it's been a while since I've updated...I really am at a stand-still on the surrogate front.  Things will pick up again in about a month.

So, I just wanted to make a quick list of what I am thankful for:

My husband--without him, I wouldn't be married. LOL 
My kids--they rock and make me laugh constantly.
My parents (even the "in law" and "step" ones)--they molded me into what I am today.
Branden and Tracy--my dreams of becoming a surrogate wouldn't be realized if it weren't for them.
Styx--we all need an obsession.
My boss--he's truly an awesome person, as a boss and friend.
My coworkers--some truly work and I appreciate that.  Others make me laugh (I'll have to post about the "2 slices of cheese in the fridgederator" some day....)
My musical ability--I love the fact that I am musically capable of sounding good...sometimes.
My blackberry--without it, I'd be lost.
Woodman's--my new favorite place to grocery shop.
Jeff Coffin and Mark Colby--you tube them.
Diet Cherry Pepsi--yum.
Kermit the Frog--without him, I wouldn't have a tattoo.

I'm thankful for more, but I hear a child crying in the background (tired), so I must go.

Happy Thanksgiving to all!!!

Friday, November 19, 2010


My husband is out of town on a family emergency (his grandpa was admitted to the hospital--and side note, he's okay for the moment) so I've been "stuck" with my three kids, tending to their every need on a solo run.  It's really not bad, but definitely has its moments.

Yesterday, we started running low on milk.  Running low is not an option and running out would be something I never want to experience for a second time (lets just say it wasn't a good time).  So, after my work day was completed I got the kids ready (and myself) and we headed to the store.

To make this post a surrogacy related one in a very small way, I decided to go Target and get my BCP prescription re-filled and pick up a few more things, in addition to the milk.  Efficient is my middle name.

So we went to Target.  First went to the pharmacy and asked them to refill my Rx...they said it would take about 15 minutes, so we went on our shopping way.  We putzed around for a bit and I decided to browse the towel aisle.  Because I had the 3 kids, we were using one of those "kid" carts--the one with the 2 seats and then the cart.  Elliot, since he was 2, likes to ride below the cart (like where you would put your soda).  He's been doing it for 3 years and we've never had a problem.  So, I'm browsing the towels, Elliot is in the bottom of the cart, the girls are in their seats and all is well...until I started pushing the cart.  The minute I moved, I heard a scream that I think was heard in the next town over.  It was Elliot.  It was one of those screams that started out REALLY loud and then was silent...but he was still screaming.

He got out from under the cart and held up his hand...and there it was.  A fingernail on his pinky finger just dangling there.  As a mom, my heart sank and then started to beat so fast.  What do I do?  So, I tried to calm him down and quickly started to walk towards the pharmacy (best place for someone to maybe know what they're doing, right?).  We got to the pharmacy and the pharmacist came to help us.  Do I go to the ER?  Do I just wrap it up and call the doc tomorrow?  She asked who Elliot's doctor was and picked up the phone (she was really great).  While on the phone (I have no idea who she called), another Target employee came over to me to start his "incident report". 

Pharmacy lady said that the urgent care clinic was still open and she suggested I go there.  Good call. So together, we wrapped up Elliot's finger and we were on our way.  As I was getting the girls in the cart again, pharmacy lady told me I was too early for my Rx refill...go figure.

Because I knew I wouldn't have an ounce of sanity later, I did check out the milk I had in my cart.  Then, I ran Elliot over to the urgent care clinic in town and long story short, it was determined it was not broken and we shouldn't have issues with the nail in the future.  It's going to grow a little odd for a while, but all should be good.

Elliot was a champ at the doctor's office.  The girls, however, were a different story.  No naps, no dinner (and by that point we were at about 7:00 pm) and it was just not a good time. 

After a quick drive-thru at McD's, I was happy to get home.  

Gonna erase that night from my mind for a while....

Thursday, November 18, 2010

A non-surrogate related debate

I'm not one for confrontation.  I don't like to argue.  I try to look at all things from any angle possible and, though I'll typically have my stance on a certain subject, I can usually see the other side of things.

The high school debate club was not my favorite place.  I sucked at it.

But I had a debate recently and didn't do so well at seeing the other side.

I was at a client the other day for a wellness fair (which has no bearing on this story).  It was basically a group of about 10 of us, all sitting at our own respective tables, displaying whatever product or service we offered and the employees of this organization could stop by our table and talk to us about whatever it was we had to talk about.  And it was dead.  I mean, dead.  I was there for about 4 hours and spoke to maybe 5 people, if that.

We had some down time.  All 10 of us.  Sure, I did get some Christmas shopping (online) done and stopped by my favorite surrogacy board (AAS), but most of us were sales people at these tables, so of course we all have the gift of gab.

And then the debate started.  It was between me and a gentleman that worked for an investment company I think, sitting directly across from me.  This guy (we'll call him "Jim" for purposes of my blog post) is a big guy.  Probably 6'4" ish and pushing 3 bills.  He was talking (to everyone) about how he, his pregnant wife and 4 year old son just moved to Grafton (an area north of Milwaukee) because they have a "really crappy" high school football team.  I kinda looked at him like "huh"?  And asked...why would you move to a place just because they had a cruddy football team?  His response-"Because I will never allow my children to play football and with a crappy football team, there will be less of a chance of my children wanting to play". 

What?  Huh?

There's a couple issues here, in my opinion.  First, moving to a community just because they have a crappy football team seems odd to me.  Especially considering your son is 4 YEARS OLD.  He's not going to be in high school for ANOTHER 11 years.  Do you think maybe there's a chance that the football team could change it's course in 11 years and possibly turn into a good team?  Ever think about that?

Oh, but here was the big debate.  He was adamant--like almost pissy about it--that his son would NEVER play football because he (Jim) got hurt playing football when he was in high school.  So, he will never allow his children to play because of that.  I have an issue with this.  I believe that children should be allowed to make their own choices at a certain point in their lives--sure, the younger they are, the more guidance they need...but when they hit high school, are 15+ years old, I believe they have the capability and ability to make some choices by themselves, including "hey, I'd like to play football" or "hey, I'd like to play soccer" or "hey, I want to be in the band".

I understand football is a pretty physical sport and can cause injury.  But, so is soccer.  So is hockey.  So is riding a horse.  So is ballet.  Yes, I understand there's different levels of physical aspects of each, but to deny your 15 year old the ability to make that decision him/herself doesn't seem right to me.  Remember I mentioned Jim's size?  Yeah, he's a big guy.  The chances of his kids being "bigger" are probably pretty good.  Sometimes (or maybe I should say "usually"), when you're a bigger person, the chance of you excelling at a sport, like football, are much higher than if you were 5'4" and 120 pounds.

There's risk in everything/everyday life.  There's risk when you step out the door, there's risk when you get in a deny your child the choice to play a sport when he's at an age where he can make decisions himself seems wrong to me.

Anyway, I didn't step down, I told him I thought he was wrong and we left it at that.

We'll see what trouble we can get into next year at the benefit fair....

Friday, November 12, 2010


As I sit here this evening, I'm pondering something that's pretty important to a lot of  It's important to me, it's important to my husband, my parents, my grandparents, my best friend and people I don't even know.  I don't have a lot of it and always need more of it.  No wait, I want more of it.  Big difference between NEED and WANT, right?

And now I'm thinking about my IP's (Intended Parents) and everything that they've had to go through, specifically as it relates to money.  Being an IP doesn't come cheap.  I have no clue how much money they're "out", but I can't imagine it's a small number.  From the consults to the egg retrieval to the creation of the embryo's to everything that I've had to do (because everything to do with a gestational carrier is on them--the meds, ultrasounds, psych evaluation, appointments...).  I imagine the reproductive endocrinologist (RE) doesn't come cheap, either.

So here's my much would you be willing to pay to have a child?  Man, that's tough, huh?  I mean, I don't even know if I can answer that one.  I suppose I would do everything I could to have a child with my husband-my own flesh and blood.  Mortgage the house, move into an apartment...but where would it stop? 

As you know the first embryo transfer we had failed.  That doesn't mean Tracy and Branden didn't get charged for all of that.  It wasn't a "freebie".  They had to pay for everything whether the embryo took or not.  And now they have to do it again.  Man, I just can't imagine...toughness times 88.

So, that's what I was thinking about today.  Money.  The "cost" of a child.   Hmmmm....

(and as a personal blog post about my own life, my son just got stung 3 times by a wasp! Yowsa! He's okay and I didn't make a big deal about it so he wouldn't freak out about it--but talk about a mini heart attack.  EEK)

Tuesday, November 9, 2010

An interesting question....

I just had a really long blog post about my answer to a question that was recently posed to me by a very dear friend.  And then I decided to delete it.  I'm not going to post what my answer was, but will simply leave you with this question for thought: 

Would you consider just having a baby and giving it to someone who really, really wanted it but couldn't have one?

Monday, November 8, 2010


HUGE update here, people.  Hope you're ready....

I started birth control pills last night!!

HA HA.  Yeah, I told you it was a big update.  Whew! I'm winded!

Friday, November 5, 2010

A real update...that has to do with this whole surrogacy thing.

Yeah, didn't really think I'd have an update so soon, did ya?  Well, I do.  And it's a good one.

I've been harboring some info for a couple days.  Stone me later.  A few days ago, Tracy threw me a text that said "we want to try again".  I guess I had figured (and hoped) they would want to try another round, but wasn't about to ask not even a week after our news of the non-pregnancy.  So, I wanted to give them some time to think about things and figure it out.  Didn't take them too long :)

Since there's really no sense in waiting for anything, we figured we'd try to get this going as soon as we can.  So, Thursday (yesterday) I called the clinic to find out what we do.  I was instructed to wait for Jill to call me some time next week--she's more or less the "case worker" for our little journey here and it was best I speak with her.  Okey Dokey.

So, I'm expecting a phone call sometime next week.  As I mentioned, Jill has been on medical leave for weeks--I figured she needed to get back to the office, settle in and then, after a few days, start working on "us" again.

Today (Friday) was Jill's first day back.  She called me at 9:00 am.  Though I'd like to think I'm her only patient, I'm guessing I'm not.  But seriously, she called me after only a couple hours back to work after WEEKS off?  Yeah, she's the shit.

And so we chatted.  And guess what?  We have a new transfer date, my friends!

January 26

Yeah, okay.  I know that sounds like it's REALLY far away.  Well, at least for me it does.  But, here's why we have to wait that long.  First of all, I have to go back on ALL the meds I was on before...and there's a true and specific science to those meds to prepare my uterus for the embryo's.  There's at least 6 weeks of meds before the transfer.  Plus, the clinic has a mandatory laboratory shut down between Christmas and New Year's (why, I know not).  Plus, Dr. S is going on vacation the first week in January.  Plus, we have to re-sign (and notarize) all the paperwork again and I have to re-take my Reglara "test" (the "have you had sex with a man who's had sex with a man for money questionnaire).  Oh, and I have to get my FDA labs re-done and the infectious diseases test cleared again too. 

So yeah, there's a lot to do.

But I feel good about this.  My job duties will have eased up a bit by then (hopefully), we'll have the stress of the Holiday's over with...January 26 sounds like a good day.

I have one more med to take this time and I'm actually going to start it on Sunday...a birth control pill.  Not really to prevent a pregnancy, but to get my cycles where they want them to be.

So, here's the med timeline:

Start BCP 11/7
Start Lupron injections 12/15
Stop BCP 12/22
Start Estrace 1/8
Start Progesterone ??

That's the scoop-a-loop.  Here's to round number 2!

Monday, November 1, 2010

A non-update.

Just wanted to update....with nothing at all.... LOL

It's weird.  The surrogacy has been a huge part of my life since April and on one day, it just kinda went away.  No more ultrasounds, no more pills, no more injections.  It's odd to me for some reason--and in a way, I miss it.  "You miss giving yourself a shot??"  Yeah, kinda.  Because the reason WHY I was giving myself the shot was why I didn't have an issue.  Hard to explain, I guess.

Anyway, still not sure what's going to happen. 

Want to keep my blog nice a cozy, though :)  How about some pictures??  Everyone loves photos, right?

Obviously these have nothing to do with the surrogacy, so we're going to veer off for an undetermined period of time to a) show you what my life is like in a non-surrogate fashion and b) keep my mind off of everything for a while.

We'll start with my children.  My world.  My awesomeness. 

Totally out of age order....

This is Emerson, the middle child.  She's turning 3 tomorrow (and wears a size 5T).  She's awesome.  She won't leave the house without some form of an overboard girl piece of garb on:  tutu, fluffy skirt, fairy wings (she calls them butterfly wings).  I can't possibly throw any more love at this girl.  My princess tank.

This is my "oops", uh, I mean this is London.  London was not in the master plan, but to imagine life without her is simply not possible.  She rocks my world and I love her to the moon and back.  She's 18 months old, going on 10 and is awesomeness times 89.

And finally, there's the big man on campus.  The leader of the pack.  The main man.  The best big brother any sister could ask for.  He's 5 and is unbelievable in so many ways.  He's so kind-hearted, smart, cute and amazing.  My boy, my heart.  This is Mario.

(really his name is Elliot, but don't tell him that...he prefers to go by "Mario")

So, there are my kiddos.  The little people in my world.  Pure awesomeness.

Friday, October 29, 2010

Results in

I'm not pregnant.

It's so hard to type that.  I can barely see the screen because I've been crying.  This just seems wrong, surreal.  Everything has gone so great during this whole process.  Why did this have to happen? 

I'm not sure what's next.  I'm not sure if Tracy and Branden will want to try another round with me--the ball is in their court.  I will for sure continue to update this blog as whatever happens, happens.

Thank you to my followers on this blog.  Please keep "following"--who knows what's next??

Still Waiting.

Had my blood work at 7:00 am this morning.

It's no 11:39 with no call.

Waiting blows.

I'm anticipating a call that goes something like this "Jesse, it's the clinic.  We got your results back and I'm sorry to say you're not pregnant.  You can stop your meds now."

That's what I'm expecting and I hope it's different, but I'm afraid it won't be.  I seriously am saddened.

Thursday, October 28, 2010

Tomorrow. The BETA.

So yeah, I've been bummed.  Totally bummed.  I should not have POAS.

The BETA is tomorrow. So we'll find out for sure tomorrow.

I'm such a wreck of emotions right now.  I'll blame SOME of that on the hormones and the fact that mine are all effed up right now.  But seriously, a negative pregnancy test when you really really really want a positive one is a downer.  I've never had a negative pregnancy test in all the 8000 that I've taken over the years (and I'm not even exaggerating....)

Tracy (the IM-Intended Mother) has been awesome this past week.  Asking me how I'm feeling almost daily and just being totally positive about things.  I want so bad to wish that she knows something I don't.  Like when I had my estrogen and progesterone levels drawn on Monday, maybe they took an HcG level and it was high and they called Tracy and told her but decided to keep it from me.  Yeah, I think like that.  I want that to be reality.

I had a VERY vivid dream last night that I had 2 nice lines on a test. Like, so much that I woke up and smiled...and then realized I hadn't had those 2 lines.  Maybe the dream means something?  Who knows....

I took another test tonight (I know, I know) and it was the Equate (Wal-Mart) brand.  The other tests I used were either Internet cheapies or dollar store.  Well, I got a very very very very very faint (like barely visible) line.  A line is a line....right?  Or maybe I just thought I saw a line?  Ug.

So, tomorrow morning at 7:00 am I will have the most important blood draw of the many many many that I've had over the course of the last 6 months. 

Please pray, do a pregnancy dance-whatever.  Anything to help.

Thank you.

Tuesday, October 26, 2010

I did, but shouldn't have.

Okay, I feel like stoning myself.

I tested.  Yesterday.

And it was negative.

Yes, I'm TOTALLY bummed out.  TOTALLY. I shouldn't have tested.  I shouldn't have.

I know, I's still early.  It was 5 days past transfer.  Early, right?

So, I'm going to do whatever I can to hold off on testing again.  I just don't want to be bummed even more than I am.


Monday, October 25, 2010

More waiting....and waiting....and did I mention waiting?

I had a blood draw today...was kinda hoping the numbers would tell us something...but I don't think they do.

Date of Transfer (10/20): 11.7
Today (10/25): 27

Date of Transfer (10/20): 203
Today (10/25): 275

They want my estrogen over 200, so I have to bump up those pills...which kinda stinks because that's the stuff I think gave me the nausea and headaches. :(  Oh well....will be worth it.

I'm not quite sure what those numbers mean, but I understand it's really no indication of a pregnancy.


Sunday, October 24, 2010

Waiting = HARD!!!

This whole waiting thing is kinda tough....on one hand, I want to test today...but on the other hand I don't.  It's still pretty early (only 4 days past transfer).  If I tested and got a negative result, I'd be totally bummed...but then again, if I got a negative result, it's still early, ya know?  But if I got a positive result, I'd be elated. Do I risk it?


I think I'm going to wait...Maybe I'll wait...Yeah, I'll wait...I think...

Friday, October 22, 2010


Well, the big day has come and gone...what we've been waiting for since April is now in the past--and here's how it went down:

I decided to take this entire week off of work.  Partly due to the transfer and the fact that I knew I had to hang low afterwards, and partly because I needed a serious break from work.

So, we packed up the kids and went to our place in Door County on Monday (the 18th) morning.  We enjoyed our time with the kids and it felt good to be a mom, without having the stress of my job looming over me.

On Wednesday morning, my dad and step-mother picked up the kids in the motor home for some "camping" fun and my husband and I were on our way to the hospital. 

I was instructed to not eat or drink a whole lot before the procedure.

We got there at noon and both DH (dear husband) and I were given wrist band thingys.  I then got a blood draw (can't walk into that place without getting poked!) and were shown to the room where we'd be camped out for the next few hours.  It was pretty typical-but a little more "comfortable" than a normal exam room--maybe 'cause the lights dimmed.

I was instructed to drop trou and lay down on the table.  Nurse Sue (who was awesome, by the way) came in and administered a shot of something (can't remember the name)--it was a muscle relaxer and was awesome! LOL  I didn't get loopy, but just felt totally relaxed.  Oh, and the 20 minute massage I got after that didn't hurt, either :)

Shortly after my massage, the IP's (intended parents) came in.  Well, it's about time I shared their real names (they said I could)--Branden and Tracy.

After a briefing on what was going to happen, we were shown a pretty remarkable image on the TV screen--the embryo's:

Amazing, isn't it?

They have 8 blastocysts total and thawed 2 (because that's how many they planned on implanting) and both survived the thaw!! (that's really good--sometimes they don't survive the thaw).  They are all 5 days old.

After we got the info on the embryo's, we were ready to go.  I let Branden and Tracy stay in the room (they didn't see anything "down there").  Dr. Severino came in all scrubbed up and I assumed the position.  Yeah, that position.

I can't really explain what he did next, but I do remember him mentioning something about "cleaning my cervix"...after that was all done, we confirmed the embryo's once more (looked at the names) and the embryologist walked in with them in a really long tube like thing.  Dr. Severino then basically put them directly into my uterus--he waited about 30 seconds to make sure they would "float away" from the tube.

After that, the embryologist took the tube back to make sure there wasn't one stuck on there still-and there wasn't.  Then, we were done with the transfer!!

I had to lay back with my hips and legs elevated for 2 hours after--so all 4 of us just chatted and the time actually went by fast.

When that was done, Branden and Tracy had to leave, so they did--then Sue came back in and I was given my instructions for the next steps:

Bed rest for 3.5 days (Wed/Thurs/Fri/Sat)---and it's pretty strict. Like, I can get up to pee and that's about it.  It's been tough, and I'm only half way through.

My pregesterone level on Wednesday was 11.8 and my estradiol was 203...the progesterone numbers should go up with each day-and they want the other number to be above 200.  I have to have lab work on Monday (25th) and then again on Friday (29th).  The Friday one will be the pregnancy test!!  If Friday is positive, then I have to go back the following Monday and Wednesday.

So much is going through my head right now.  I feel like every time I get up, I'm doing something wrong.  I just want this to "take" so bad and don't want to do anything to mess it up.

So, now we're in what's called the 2 week wait (2WW).  I'm planning to POAS (pee on a stick) maybe keep your fingers crossed!!!

Wednesday, October 20, 2010

We transferred!!! Details to come soon!

Sunday, October 17, 2010

Holy balls.

So yeah...had the big "switch up" of meds yesterday.

I dropped the Estrace to 2 tablets a big deal (and, as a matter of fact, my nausea and headaches went away).

I started the Doxycycline, 2 pills a big deal.

Then, I gave myself a shot of this:

I'm going to now call this PIO---which stands for Progesterone in Oil.

Had always given my Lupron shots in the leg--which was never a big deal.  Since I had the option of doing the Progesterone shots in the butt (well, right above the butt) or the leg, I chose leg.  I'd given shots there before, shouldn't be an issue, right?


I should have known something wasn't going to be as "nice" as the Lupron when I saw the needle:

Yeah, that puppy is a good inch and a half, if not more.

So, here is the process:

First, you have to draw up the meds into the syringe--okay, the "in oil" part should be a key--this stuff is THICK.  Like hair gel thick.  So, I used a 22 gauge needle to draw it up--then, I have to swap to a 25 gauge needed to administer the drug.

So, I read my directions one more time before I did it.  Sat on the foot of the bed, rubbed the spot with alcohol, let it dry, then inserted the needle.

This is where the "holy balls" comes in.  Yeah.  Ouch.  As I'm pushing it into my muscle, I can feel what I think is the needle hitting nerves.  So, I immediately feel like I'm going to throw up and start sweating.  Could I stop?  Uh, no--just had to run with it.  It sucked.

When you give this injection, you must draw up a bit on the syringe--if you see blood, that means you're in the wrong spot and just have to withdraw the needle a bit.  I, fortunately, did not see blood, so I gave myself the injection...and it took like 30 seconds.  Okay, that may not sound like a long time, but to me, it was an eternity.

As soon as I had that crap gone, I withdrew the needle and almost cried...because then my leg started to hurt really bad.  And it hurt all night.  Still hurts tonight, nearly 24 hours later.

So, a lovely person shared a link on YouTube for me on someone else giving themselves an PIO injection in the butt and I think I'm going to switch to the butt tonight.  My only fear is that I won't put it in the right spot...but I'm willing to take that chance than to have this leg thing happen again.

So, the family and I are headed up to our place in Door County for the week...we'll have the kids until Wednesday morning--then, my dad and step mother will be taking them and we'll head to the hospital for the transfer!  Then, I'm on bed rest for a few days.  I can't believe the transfer is in 3 days!!

I don't have very good Internet access up there, so I may not get an opportunity to update until the weekend...

Finally, something nice--I went to church today with the kids.  I don't go to church a whole lot because it's usually a pain with all 3 of the kids (and husband usually doesn't go because he's out driving limo until 4 in the morning the night before) step-mother asked if I would like to be prayed upon after the service--so with my dad, step mom, grandma and grandpa, I got a prayer :)

Friday, October 15, 2010

My last ultrasound was today..., kinda sad about that.  I'm not sure why.

Got to the hospital this morning with my littlest juiceball in tow (London).  I was sad that Jill wasn't there to greet me :(  A different nurse (Nikki, I think) took me back from my normal blood draw and then I went into the exam room and dropped trou.

Nikki, Dr. S and some other woman (a med student) came in minutes later and did the ultrasound--I was still measuring at 13, which is perfect!  They also measured something else to basically determine where they will place the embryos...I heard the number "8", but have no idea what that means.

I also got a call from the Doc that my Estradiol number is at 376, which is great also!

Got my directions for my next steps, starting tomorrow (Oct 16):

Begin Progesterone injections (use 22 G needle to draw meds and 25 G needle to administer)

Begin Doxycycline 100mg 1 tablet 2x a day (with food)

Decrease Estrace to 2 mg tables 2x a day (right now doing 3x a day)

They asked me if I wanted a relaxation massage before the embryo transfer on Wednesday...uh, HELL YEAH I do!  So, I'll get a little pampering before the procedure. :)

Transfer is set for 1:00 on Wednesday!!!

Wednesday, October 13, 2010

Let the countdown begin!

Transfer is in one week!!


Tuesday, October 12, 2010

Yup, another one.

Like I said, I'm getting good at these!

Had another ultrasound yesterday, but did this one at the fertility center in West Allis (which is less than 20 blocks from my work)--just more convenient.  So, I follow the normal process (blood draw first, then u/s)...but the doc that did the u/s this time (a woman) made me so crampy! I'm not sure what she did differently, but it almost hurt!

Anyway, I survived..lining was at 13!

I had valet parked my car at the clinic (because I had not been there before and wasn't sure where to go, etc...) I waited and waited for the valet to bring me my car...and it took forever.  Turns out he couldn't get it started! LOL  I've been having that issue for a couple weeks, but NEVER thought about that when I dropped it off.  OOPS.  He did end up starting it and I was on my way.

(stopped at Sammy's for lunch...if you're ever in Milwaukee and want a good Hot Dog (and I had mozz sticks too) go to Sammy's!!)

Got back to the office and got a phone call from Dr. Mark's office--they said everything was looking "fabulous"--my level was at 282 (and at this point they want it over 200, so all is good!)

I have the mock transfer on Friday!  Not quite sure what that entails, but I'll update after I have it :)

And, just because I want to spice up my blog with a picture every now and then....(which has absolutely nothing to do with the surrogacy...LOL)

I was thinking yesterday--in 2 weeks, there's a chance I could have a positive pg test!!!

Thursday, October 7, 2010

Another ultrasound--I'm getting good at these!

Had another ultrasound scheduled for today--thought my appointment was at 7:30 and when I waltzed into the clinic all cheery, the woman at the front desk (Marie) says "Are you okay?"  "Of course I am" I replied.  "Why?" 

Apparently, they had me down for 6:45....


All was good, though--Dr. Mark was there and they were still able to do what they needed to do.

Had my blood drawn and then went into the exam room for my ultrasound.  Usually when I get the u/s, it's only Dr. Mark and Jill in the room--well, today I had the norm and also 2 other women!  One was a nurse and the other was a med student--no biggie to me.

Had the ultrasound and my measurement was 12--which is great! I heard Dr. Mark say  "you're going to be just fine to accept a pregnancy".  WOOOO!

After that, I asked Jill for one more "please make sure I know when I'm doing when I give myself the progesterone shot" lesson--I think I'm all set now.

Got a call back from Jill a few hours after my appointment with my "level"---I still need to figure out what these numbers mean...anyway, it was 71.1, which I guess is good right now.  They want it to be over 200 by transfer date and we're well on our way.

So, here's what's happening....I bumped my Estrace pill up to a full pill twice a day, starting today.  I get to stop the Lupron shots on Sunday (woo!).  I have another ultrasound on Monday (in Milwaukee) and then I have the mock transfer in Green Bay on Friday.  I start progesterone shots on Saturday (the 16th).

Saturday, October 2, 2010

More meds

Well, I started the Estrace today.  1/2 pill 2x a day...Not feeling any side effects, so I'm happy.

Still have this dang cold.  Zicam appears to be my friend, though.

Saw something really cool today...

Apparently double rainbows mean fertility??  WOO!!!

Friday, October 1, 2010

Colds suck Part II

I got hit again.  This blows.  Elliot has it too--which makes me believe he got it from someone at school.

Seriously, is my immune system that shot that I get colds so often and quick?

Ug.  Well, nice thing is I asked Jill if I could take anything and the answer was hopefully what I just took kicks in REAL quick.

Tuesday, September 28, 2010

All good

Had another ultrasound today and my lining was 5.5...which is good.  It will go up over the course of the next couple weeks and by transfer date, we should be right on the money (they want over 8).

I had to also repeat the FDA labs today (FDA requirement, checking for infectious diseases, etc...) and was again asked the wacky questions like "have you had sex with a man other than your spouse for money".  I told Jill it's just sad that they even have to ask these questions...if you're going to say "yes", I think you've got some issues and shouldn't be donating an organ, ya know?

Anyway, they needed to check the estrogen level again and Jill just called me back a few minutes ago--they want it less than 40 and I was at 24.7, so WOO!  That means that I decrease my Lupron to 10 units beginning tonight (and I get to stop the Lupron on Oct 10th!) and then I start Estrace on Oct 2, 1/2 a pill, 2x a day.

And if you were to ask me what does the Lupron or Estrace do, I would have no idea. LOL  So, here's a bit of an education for you:

What is Lupron?

Lupron is a man-made form of a hormone that regulates many processes in the body. Leuprolide overstimulates the body's own production of certain hormones, which causes that production to shut down temporarily. It reduces the amount of testosterone in men or estrogen in women.

Lupron is used in men to treat the symptoms of prostate cancer. Lupron treats only the symptoms of prostate cancer and does not treat the cancer itself. Use any other medications your doctor has prescribed to best treat your condition.

Lupron is used in women to treat symptoms of endometriosis (overgrowth of uterine lining outside of the uterus) or uterine fibroids.

Lupron is also used to treat precocious (early-onset) puberty in both male and female children

What is Estrace?

Estrace (estradiol) is a form of estrogen, a female sex hormone produced by the ovaries. Estrogen is necessary for many processes in the body.

Estrace is used to treat symptoms of menopause such as hot flashes, and vaginal dryness, burning, and irritation. Other uses include prevention of osteoporosis in postmenopausal women, and replacement of estrogen in women with ovarian failure or other conditions that cause a lack of natural estrogen in the body. Estrace is sometimes used as part of cancer treatment in women and men.

There you go.  Even I learned something.  Oh, and the above information was taken from

So, I go back on the 7th for another ultrasound!

Oh, a bit of disappointing news...I learned that Jill has surgery on Oct 8th and won't actually be there for the transfer!! I'm kinda bummed...she's been with me/us this whole time :(  She said she's going to try to pop in that day, though, and say Hi.

Friday, September 24, 2010

Freaked out

Okay, don't let that title scare you.  I'm not freaked out by anything bad.  I'm not freaked out by getting pregnant or needles; I'm not freaked out that nearly half of the RE's office has seen my va jay jay--no, I'm freaked out that everything has been running so smoothly.  Something is bound to happen and that scares me.

I was supposed to get AF yesterday.  AF is extremely important during this whole process.  She didn't show.   So, I got on the phone with Jill and was asked to come in for an ultrasound and lab work (estrogen levels)...last night, I though she might have been starting, but when I woke up, nothing. this morning I drove up to Green Bay for that appointment; prior to my ultrasound, I had to use the restroom--so I did--and guess what....AF!!  Very happy she showed, kinda pissed because had she done that yesterday, I probably wouldn't have had to drive up there for the ultrasound today.

Anyway, my lining is thick (expected) at 13, so I need to go back next week for another lining check and then they'll also repeat the FDA labs.  They took some blood today for the estrogen and just got a call--they want it under 40 and mine was at, I need to stay on the Lupron at 20 cc's for a bit yet.  I'll have a re-eval next week, but I'm still projected to start the progesterone on the 2nd.

Back to the freaking out part.  We're still on schedule with everything-the only "major" thing that has gone wrong was that polyp--but that's no longer an issue.  I truly hope that everything else continues to go as smoothly as it has been!

Sunday, September 19, 2010

Colds suck.

Ug.  I'm miserable.  Summer or fall-whatever season we're in now-regardless of the time of year, colds suck.  My kids have wee bits of cold symptoms but mommy (me) has a full blown crappy nose runny, feel like I've been run over, cold.

I'm so tempted to take something, but I don't want to as to not interfere with the Lupron.  I should really get the okay from Dr. Mark but it's Sunday afternoon and he's likley celebrating the Packer victory.

I'm not a complainer, really.  I just feel like crapola.  Ug.

Monday, September 13, 2010

Needles are cool

No really, they are.  Good thing I'm not freaked out by them...seriously.

So I did my first Lupron shot on Saturday and really, it was no big deal at all.  Of course the needle is pretty small.

So, I really think I'm going to survive.

Nothing else new on the surro front--just doing the meds and counting down to transfer!

Saturday, September 11, 2010


Last week Thursday I went to the RE's office for my med training.  Little did I know I had to get an ultrasound, also (good thing I "prepared" in the morning! LOL).  According to the doc, my uterine wall is nice and thick (which is good)--I had a cyst on my ovary, which I couldn't quite understand meant that I just ovulated or was about to.  Regardless, all is good.

They took a blood draw to determine a level (and I can't remember what it was for)...if I was over 3, I was good to go to start the Lupron injections that night.  If it was below 3, I had to wait to start the Lupron until today (Saturday).

A few hours after my appointment, Jill called with my level--a I start the Lupron tonight.  In the meantime, I've been taking Norethin (which I have to stay on for a week).

After my ultrasound, Jill took me back to the conference room and we laid out all the "stuff" I had gotten via Fed Ex last weekend.  Jill had ordered it all for me and it was delivered to my home--I hadn't even opened the package.  I didn't quite know what to expect--here's what I received:

Yeah, a little intimidating...but Jill walked me through everything and I'm pretty comfortable with it all.  The Lupron shots have a pretty tiny needle--but when I start the Progesterone, those needs are quite a bit bigger.  I'm going to give all the shots myself because, though my husband is totally willing to help, I don't see him at the same times every day and these need to be pretty consistent....

So, I'll keep you posted on my first Lupron shot tonight!!

Tuesday, August 31, 2010


Lots of good news today.

I had my 2nd SHG this morning...was kinda nervous going into it.  Not sure why...I guess this polyp has been weighing heavily on my mind.  Jill got me all situated on the table, Dr. Mark came in and in less than 10 minutes I was done.



He said it likely went away during my last cycle. 

Jill talked to "Sarah" afterwards and we have our transfer date set--OCTOBER 20, 2010!!!

Jill again mentioned the parenting agreement that we still needed to sign...that and a bunch of other stuff my husband and I had to sign.  We met Steve and Sarah at the bank's office tonight and had EVERYTHING notarized.  We are all legal and official on everything now!!!

So so so so excited!

Monday, August 30, 2010

No title to this post....just an update that my 2nd SHG is tomorrow.  A little nervous that damn polyp is still going to cause an issue.

Guess we'll see....

Friday, August 20, 2010

And here we go....

Jill is on vacation this week, so I talked to Sue (who was equally as nice).  Told her the good news about the cycle starting...

My next steps:

Day 3 lab draw for hormone levels--8/21 @ 10:45 am

2nd opinion SHG scheduled for 8/31 @ 7:30 am at RE's office.

Day 21 injections training--9/9 @ 9:30 am at RE's office (with husband so he can learn how to give me injections).

Depending on what SHG "says"....tentative transfer date is October 13th!!! 

Thursday, August 19, 2010

She's here.

Oh boy.  I'm in for it.

She made it.  Not sure what took her so dang long, but Aunt Flo is here and has released her fury on me and my household.

Calling Jill tomorrow--have to get hormone check on day 3...which puts me at Saturday (because they would count today as day 1).  Hope the lab is open on Saturday!

ug. me out.  please.

Thursday, August 12, 2010

Aunt Flo-where you be, girl?

She never showed.  Not even a glimpse.  WTF.

I was doing so good! Period's right on schedule--then, the one where it counted I got nothin'.  So, I talked to Jill on Monday and she called in Provera for me.  I have to take it for 10 days, then I should get a period within 2 weeks.

More waiting.  Lovely.

I also talked to "Steve" the other day about the polyp.  Basically, they want a 2nd opinion, which I totally understand and agree with.  So, when I go to the clinic for my next ultrasound, they're going to check that out too. Who knows, maybe it's gone...maybe it's smaller...and then we'll make a decision on what to do.

Do I want to get it out?  Only if I absolutely have to--it's an outpatient surgery, so I'd be out of commission for at least a day--not something I have time to deal with, but can make it work.

So, we'll see...

Oh, and I've got a booger of a cold right now.  Me and the 3 littles.  So much fun.