Wednesday, December 29, 2010


(a non-surro related post)

Remember that "feathers" post I did a couple weeks ago?  Well, this is on those lines...not quite the same, but in the same boat, if you will.

As I likely have posted before, my mom is the best.  She is my best friend, my confidant, my rock.  She's suffered 2 strokes since 2007; although it took a beating on her physically, mentally she's still "got it".  Memory is good, humor is there more than ever--she's still my mom and I love her more and more every day.

Anywho, when I was about 10 years old, I can't recall where we were, but we (mom and I) saw the numbers "444" together and thought it was funny for some reason.  So, since that day (yes, roughly 21 years ago) we'd see "444" and laugh and smile and think it was neat.

Prior to my mom's stroke, if I'd see "444" together and she wasn't with me, I'd make a point to mention it to her at some point.  She'd do the same.  I remember driving home from work talking to her on the phone and she'd usually make a comment "look what time it is!"...and of course it was 4:44.

For the past few years, since her stroke, I hadn't really noticed those numbers a whole lot.  No, I hadn't forgotten about them, but I guess I just didn't notice it as frequently as I had.

...until December 20th, 2010.

I was checking my phone and noticed the number of messages I had:
(and for those wondering, that's Tommy Shaw with his guitar as my wallpaper)

And then I was playing on the computer and went onto Facebook and decided to play Farmville for a bit (yes, I'm one of "those" people)...and with Farmville you have gifts.  Observe the amount of gifts that I had that day:
And then I was checking my phone again and look at my message count later that day:

That is by no intervention from me.  My phone is set up to only keep 15 days worth of e-mails (yes, I get THAT many...) and it will automatically delete those older than 15 days...but over the course of the day I also receive e-mails.  So, the fact that it's the same number 5 hours later is kind of wild and unusual.

Then, I went to bed.  And slept.  And was woken up by London because she needed a diaper change...and guess what time she woke up?? 4:44 am.  I kid you not.

So, that was freaky.  Really freaky.  But cool.

Since then, I've seen the numbers "444" pop up a lot...coincidence?  Maybe.  Cool?  Definitely.

Tuesday, December 28, 2010

29 Days and counting!

First, I hope you all had a wonderful Christmas!!  Ours was great--quite a bit of running around, but that's what makes it the Holiday.  The kids loved all their presents, I loved all the food and family time...oh, and here's what my husband got for me:

A new stereo for my car!!  I'm so pumped!! I'm a music freak and currently have a wireless thingy for my iPod for the car.  Since it's wireless, I do get some feedback/ he got me the new stereo that has the iPod hook-up right in it--SO excited!! It's the same one he had installed in the party bus, so I've had a sneak peek.  It's getting installed on the 15th--and I'll get new speakers, too, if the tech thinks I need them.  WOOOOO HOOOOO!

Okay, surro stuff now....

Well, we've hit the under 30 mark!! Under 30 days until transfer!!  I stopped BCP on Dec 22 and my favorite person (AF) showed up on the 26th, just as she should have.  (thanks for holding off until after Christmas!!)

Today I had an appt today at the RE's office...and so it begins (I only say that because the RE's office is an hour away from to drive an hour for a quick labdraw and 30 second ultrasound is a little annoying...but I do what I need to do!).   They did the lab draw to check Estrogen levels--if it's under 40, I can drop Lupron to 10 units.  If it's above 40, I'll stay on the Lupron at 20 units for a few more days.  Dr. Mark did an ultrasound and my lining was 6.5 (which is good, I think). 

Next steps: 
  • Drop Lupron dose (depending on today's Estrogen level)
  • Start Estrace 1/8
  • Bloodwork (infectious disease) and u/s 1/13
  • Start PIO (Progesterone in Oil) 1/18
Can I get a WOO and a HOO please??  So excited--I have a feeling about this--it's GONNA WORK this time, I just know it!

Monday, December 20, 2010


I'm not sure how much time I will get to post between now and the Christmas weekend, so thought I would make sure and send my warmest Christmas/Holiday/whatever you celebrate wishes to all my blog followers, those that follow publicly and those that don't.

I have a busy week ahead and just because I'm feeling dorky, I'd like to lay it all out right here for the world to see. 

12/21--Holiday party at the office.  Always an interesting feat--usually catered by Boston Market (ah...cornbread....).  We eat, have a gift exchange (which I did not participate in this year because I wanted to hold a grudge on some co-workers) and then my team and I exchange gifts.  Usually turns out to be a good day in the gift department (that's not what it's about, I know...but it makes it more fun!! LOL)

12/24--Chinese food at the nursing home! It's a new tradition we started since mom went to Rocky Knoll after her stroke.  I buy a crapload of Chinese food and take it to her and we mow down on the stuff until we're all sick. It's great fun.  No really, it is.  The kids like it, I like it because I don't have to cook and overall, it's a good night to hang out, open presents and enjoy each others company.

Normally we would hit up midnight mass at church but having 3 kids at church for a candlelit ceremony that's usually serene and quiet is not happening. 

12/25--Open presents with the family at home.  I've been a stickler about this since we had kids.  We HAVE to open presents at our home on Christmas morning.  It's my only thing I won't give into over the Holiday's.  Call me Scrooge, but I feel my kids need to have this tradition.  After we open presents and trash the house with ribbon and wrapping paper (that I spent SO much time on wrapping *sigh*), we'll get ready and head to Steak & Eggs on the farm-another tradition that I don't want to miss.  I'm not sure how long this has been going on (perhaps one of my blog readers could chime in on this know who you are!!) but it's been since I can remember.  My step Grandma (Breeze) and Grandpa (Alfred) have always hosted this at their home....and since my STEP cousin (Kelly) and her husband (Neil) purchased the farm house last year, they've taken over the tradition.  (I emphasize the word STEP for a good's a funny story that I'll tell some day).  Anyway, over the course of the morning, I would guess that no less than 100 people walk through the doors to the old farmhouse to eat the fabulous steak and eggs breakfast prepared.  It's awesome.  After steak and eggs, we'll head to my mother-in-law's house and enjoy the rest of the day there.

12/26--this year is going to be a special "day after Christmas" because aforementioned grandparents (Breeze & Alfred) will be celebrating their 60TH WEDDING ANNIVERSARY!!  Can you even imagine??  60 years!  Wow.  Kudos to anyone that can make it that long. LOL  It's going to be a good day of celebration for them.  After that, we'll head to another Aunt's home for another tradition-prime rib dinner.  YUM.

Yes, it's going to be a busy weekend, but it's all laid out and I have a good hold on where we need to be and when (and I'm a planner, so I needed to have everything laid out weeks ago LOL)  I'm really looking forward to the weekend and everything that comes with it--family, food, fun.

Here's wishing you and yours a blessed and wonderful Christmas.  May you make many awesome memories to share for years to come!

Friday, December 17, 2010

"Why do you want to be a surrogate?"

Why do you want to be a surrogate?

I get that question asked to me nearly every time I tell people about my desire to be a surro. I go into the schpeel about me giving something to someone that they can’t have themselves, etc…but the answer I had was always so rehearsed in my head. I had a moment related to this question this past week and it literally took my breath away.

My children are 5, 3 and 1 and they, along with my husband, are my world. I live for them and don’t know what I would do without them.

Like we’ve done the past few years, I recently made some sugar cookies (not from scratch--sorry Grandma!!) and brought out all the goodies to decorate them—including 4 different colors of frosting and a plethora of sprinkles.

All 5 of us were sitting at the table having a blast when it hit me. This is why I want to be a surrogate. In a few years, I want Branden and Tracy to sit down at their kitchen table with their kid(s) and decorate cookies together and have that awesome moment of family, of being together, of knowing nothing else matters...not money, not jobs, not clothes...

I want to be a surrogate so I can help an awesome couple create many, many moments of family and togetherness because that, my friends, is what it's all about.

Here are some photos from our awesome cookie decorating evening.  I love my family to the moon and back!

Tuesday, December 14, 2010

Ug Ug UG

So, as I mentioned in my previous post, Branden, Tracy, DH and I all went and had a signing festival at the local bank to get stuff notarized this past weekend.  Well, there were about 14 consent forms that just DH and I had to sign and there was a "witness" line below our signatures.  The notary said "oh, you guys don't have to have these notarized--just witnessed" I was like "okay" she witnessed them and all was good.

Yeah, not so much.

Jill called yesterday and said we needed to have EVERYTHING notarized.  Ug Ug Ug.

Thankfully the forms that all 4 of us had to sign were good, but now DH and I have to go back and re-sign (and notarize) all of our consent forms.  It's not going to hold up the process at all, it's just a little annoying, that's all.  I'm bugged because we should have just done it to begin with.  Fart.

In other news, look what I got today!!!

I start it (Lupron) tomorrow!!

Saturday, December 11, 2010

contracts signed...again

Well, we got the 2nd round of contracts and agreements signed today.  Basically, we had to re-sign EVERYTHING we did a few months ago before the first transfer...and most had to be notarized.  The only change we made was the number of embryo's...going from 2 to 3.

But, we spent a good 15 minutes signing about 1800 different documents and whew, it's done.  Branden will deliver to Jill on Monday!

Which means we're all legal and binding and it's on.  I'll start Lupron on Wednesday (hmmm..Jill said she ordered me some, but I haven't gotten yet...must call her).  I'll continue on the BCP until Dec 22, which means I have to get another pack of it for like 3 days worth.  Slightly annoying, but I do what I need to do.

In other "stuff", we're supposed to be getting hit with a MEGA storm tonight.  Like 9-14 inches worth of the crappy white stuff.  It's now 7:00pm and there's nothing...but I do understand a city 20 minutes north is getting hit-so it's on it's way.  The family and I are all hanging out tonight, ready for anything.

Oh, and I just made a batch of the most awesome soup EVAH!  It's from the Pioneer Woman (LOVE LOVE LOVE her!!) and this is about the billionth time I've made it.  I need to share and you need to make it because it rocks everything. 

■2 slices Bacon, Cut Into 1/2-inch Pieces (or Smaller)

■2 Tablespoons Butter

■1-½ whole Yellow Onion, Diced

■5 ears Corn, Shucked (about 4 Cups)  (Jesse's note--I used 2 bags of frozen and it worked just fine...)

■2 whole Chipotle Peppers In Adobo Sauce, Finely Diced

■1 whole 4-ounce Can Diced Green Chilies

■32 ounces, fluid Low Sodium Chicken Broth

■1-½ cup Heavy Whipping Cream

■½ teaspoons Kosher Salt (more To Taste)

■3 Tablespoons Corn Meal OR Masa

■¼ cups Water

Preparation Instructions

(Carefully) slice the corn kernels off the cob. Set aside.

Add bacon pieces to a pot or dutch oven over medium heat. Cook for a couple of minutes. Throw in diced onion and stir, cooking the onion for 3 to 4 minutes. Add butter and melt. Add corn. Stir and cook for one minute. Add both kinds of chilies and stir.

Pour in chicken broth and cream. Add salt. Stir and bring to a boil. Reduce heat to low.

Combine cornmeal (or masa) with water. Stir to combine, then pour into the chowder. Cover and cook for 15 minutes over low heat. If chowder needs more thickening, add another tablespoon of cornmeal mixed with water. Cook for another ten minutes.

Serve with crusty sourdough bread or in a bread bowl. Absolutely yummy!

Make it.  You won't be disappointed.  I promise.

Saturday, December 4, 2010

Getting to Part I

Just cause I'm kinda bored (at 8:00 on a Saturday night...sigh...) I thought I would do a post with some interesting facts about yours truly.  It's likely I will continue this list at some other point...but here's a start.

...and to make it more interesting, I'm doing a photo "getting to know me"....

I've seen this band 16 times in concert. (Styx)

I used to think pink pants were cool.
I was a student at Auburn University for 5 days.
(that may warrent an entirely new blog post some day...)
I picked up a sax my freshman year of high school and fell in love.
I grew up on a farm and milked cows a lot.
I showed Arabian horses for 12 years.

I hate snow.  I realize I live in Wisconsin...but I still hate it.

 And so concludes Part I of "Getting to know me".  Watch for Part II sometime soon!

Thursday, December 2, 2010

this post has no title

I just got a call from Jill (nurse at the RE's office)...she wanted an inventory of my meds so she could order me more of whatever I needed. 

And then it hit me.  I start Lupron in 13 days!  WOO!

Okay, I was a little excited about that.  Anyway, she does need to order me the Lupron and more Progesterone, but that's it--I'm good on everything else.

We (my husband and I) have to meet up with B & T some time hopefully next week to re-sign and notarize all the paperwork again.  Since we're going to transfer 3 embryo's this round (last time we did 2), we have to basically re-do all the paperwork.

Okay, that's my surrogacy update.  Not a big one, but hey--this whole process is a hurry up and wait kind of thing.

And here's a random photo for you...was just ordering some photos for some gifts and found this one I took earlier this year (when there was still snow on the ground)...