Limbo. That's where I'm at.
(fun Jesse fact-I used to work at a roller skating rink (BEST.JOB.EVER) and rocked the limbo on roller skates.)
Anyway, back to the other limbo...
I want to be a surrogate so very badly. When I was approached by Branden and Tracy, it was the perfect situation. I could help a friend, fulfill my dream and everyone would be happy.
I wish and pray beyond everything that I know that Branden and Tracy can take another shot at this. I'm going to just hang out and wait for them to make a final decision. I owe that to them.
But, let's say they come back and say "we're 100% done". Then what? Do I keep going? Sign up with an agency? Go to some surro classifieds and find new IP's? Would anyone else even "have" me?
For now, I'm taking time. I don't want Branden and Tracy to be under any kind of pressure--they need time to figure out what they need/want to do. I'll be here, though. Waiting for them. While I'm waiting, I'm going to concentrate on me. I'm going to try to become a more healthier person--which means more exercise, eating better, living life in a better way. That starts immediately--I'm going to take a nice long walk in about 15 minutes. :)
God has a plan for me. I know it. I truly hope it involves carrying a child for someone else. Until that plan is known to me, I will do my best to be a better me.
With that, I do plan on continuing this blog. It's still a "surrogacy journey" for me. You may not get a whole lot of surrogacy related posts, but I'll do what I can.